Wonder if anyone knows about this blog.
Last night was a birthday celebration for raine and barry. For the unupdated for some reason, barry is ex bf. I don't have many exes, so there arent that many of cross comparisons that I can do. I think we have a rather decent friendship. Can talk kok and all, which is good enough. When he was contemplating a relationship, he called and I was glad. When he got together with her, I was really happy. In fact, everyone who knew him was happy, kinda. With regards to her, I think she looks like a really nice gal, pretty and all, so really happy for him.
I haven't seen him for eons. The last "bump-into" doesn't really count either.
Quite a lot of thoughts went through my head as he was seated next to me. Seconds before that I was wondering if i should be sitting next to him. I mean he's gonna be talking to his gf, then i talk to who! But nvm, i is independent. Some part of me began to recall why I did once find him funny and even cute. And I think he is really trying to be a better boyfriend, and I'm real proud of him. Just that, I don't think I know 100% the right way to act around them.
Since i was mostly talking to myself, i started to think…are there some people who are doom to bad relationships? Like for example, we weren't a very good couple so we broke up, so we'll always bring our individual problematic charcteristics to all subsequent relationships?
Doesn't sound right. So i kinda settled for the idea that every 2 different people would have a combination of different reactions towards each other, thus creating successful relationships when they meet the compatible one. Phew, i thought. It makes it easier to understand how come we had to expire and never made it close enough to eternity. But how come ah. Don't get me wrong. You know and I know we don't love each other anymore at all. All that stuff about chemistry, ingredient X, compatibility and lots more, what do they do?
Actually this got me thinking for quite a bit, that until I reached home I was still thinking about it. I tried to call a friend to talk about it, but he didn't get the hint that I needed to really talk. He too sleepy to hear me out. I think girlfriends are still better.
When daz started working at christofori, i didn't really know what he was doing there. One day, a couple of days after he started work, i called him and he was still at work though it was 9.30pm, half an hour past the time he was supposed to knock off. He was very excited that i called and asked me to hold the line, whilst he played "guan huai fang shi" on the piano. He came back to the phone, sounding all proud of himself having played a mistakeless piece, and I was stunned. For the records, daz cant play the piano. He said he stayed back to practice and just nice i call so he play for me. Got a cher to teach him. My heart totally melted. We've almost reached 2.5 years of our relationship, but I'm still thankful for these moments of trying. At that moment I thought, every relationship can work out, as long as you love each other. As long as you want to try. I mean, really, what is love? To find someone as perfect as possible? Or to find someone who wants to be perfect for you? What do you do to rely on each other? Love and care for each other? To help solve each other's problems? To live a life together? To make decisions together? To make each other laugh? And so on la.
I wanted to tell daz about what i thought for the day, but we were watching da chang jin till i fell asleep, so maybe next time.
